I am trying to move forward but at times my grief is overwhelming. I have had my share of things to deal with over the years but nothing has really prepared me for the devastation I feel at the moment...it is so very hard. My life is different now, I experience it through the lens of a mother who has lost a son, everything at the moment comes to me via this perspective and it is a much darker, murkier outlook. I know time is a healer, I learnt that when my mother died, she was 47 and I had just had my 4th child, I wondered then if I would ever get over that, eventually I did. Intellectually I know that I will one day feel better and not so overwhelmed, so therefore I force myself to go through the motions of life, always get up each morning, always take Perla for a walk, always do the things that have to be done for the business and always make myself achieve at least one other thing each day...even if it is just the dishes.
I wait and ache...till time heals.
To help the process I have decided to resume blogging, even if it may only be the Monday Ice segment, I am not sure how much I will do at this stage...but I am going to give it a try.